I do not know from where to start. Its finished! I gave up or rather lets say I realised I was fighting for the wrong cause and ended up stroking myself. Well I would not say how things ended, it is quite a strong memory. I am still not quite over this but its working gradualy. It feel very weird and a very dark feeling of loneliness but like she said I was myself before I met her so I can be that today. Well lets see how well things get. I have realised quite a lot and learned tons from this part of my life. Well thank you girl for such a beautiful time. Though not quite your fan anymore but IDK. Hasta!